Menstrual Flow & Female Energy
“Your menstrual cycle is more than your bleeding.
It carries your ancient wisdom.
It is how we know ourselves deeply.
It is where so much healing occurs.
It is how we return to our womanhood. ”
To write about this very intimate and yet so important topic in the lives of us women, has been circling around in my head ever since I entered my own new cycle this month. Interestingly enough mine started on the 11.11. and has ended on the first day of the super moon, which is today as I am writing this. According to Numerology the number 1 is the most powerful number because it represents the initiation, the beginning of everything. It speaks to us of the ability to make our own decisions, to be authentic and to lead our own path in life. Among many other meanings. And quadruplicated it increases that energy, this is why in spirituality, when you encounter the number 1, 11, 111 and 1111 it is said to be a message and invitation from the divine to listen & to reinforce your awareness with regards to your personal life; where you are now and what you truly desire deep in your heart. It opens a portal to subtle energies that physically and logically you might not perceive and understand as such but when you are receptive and open enough, you will feel this “tickling” through your energetic body.
I rarely encountered alternate articles and messages about the women’s menstrual cylce that went deeper and beyond the physical and superficial emotions. Also typically ignorant comments such as “Being bitchy, too emotional, needy, sensitive, belligerent, etc” when a woman is in her moment and not treating it as something to honor that deserve respect and acceptance. Now after 34 years of being a woman on this planet only now I am starting to study this “different” feminine side of mine. My deep wish for every woman on this planet is to come to this understanding that this is where her true power lies. This is why I decided to write a Blog about this topic and speak openly about how it was lived in my times, my distorted beliefs that I unconsciously without questioning it a second, picked up from my environment and how I am now giving it a complete turnaround and meaning after so many years of repressing the truth of its presence.
I remember when I first had my period at the age of 14 years I was overwhelmed and didn’t know how to react to it. I didn’t feel a woman yet but I wasn’t a little girl anymore. This was the beginning of a long and arduous search of my true femininity in a society that was shaming and hiding this natural, beautiful, and transformative part of being a woman. And no, I have no opinion on the feminist movements. I don’t connect and resonate at all with it as it has nothing to do with the empowered, independent and autonomous woman that inhabits in us with that authentic and loving presence. But this is another topic that I’d rather don’t start discussing here. Maybe you can remember when it was the first time when you entered this stage in your adolescence and how you were taught about it, how it made you feel and how you handled these stages of becoming a woman up to this present moment of your life.
Hence, from that moment on I was taught in my friend’s circle that you should not show people when you have “your red friend” coming over so I couldn’t under any circumstances show tampons or slips when I was out and about. I was taught it was best for me to hide it away, so I would take it out of my bag and stuff it into my pants so quickly that no one would see it when going to the public bathroom. I started to believe, like most girls, this was something yucky and involuntarily developed a deep shame for being a woman, I therefore started to reject this part of me more and more until gradually I ended up rejecting myself. Today I notice how damaging this was to the woman I would grow into in the coming years because what I underestimated the most was that this belief would manifest in many other areas in my life but especially my self-esteem, that was so incredibly wounded and damaged. I didn’t have this awareness that I have today and thought this was the reality of who I am back then. This is how powerful your deeply rooted beliefs can become and manifest in your life. You end up hating parts of yourself and you don’t even remember where and in what point of your life this shift happened.
I don’t know what was different this year that I woke up to this realization, the strong connection and attraction that I have been feeling just shortly. One thing, though, I am certain of, it was waiting a long time for me to be ready to open up and question this forgotten innate wisdom. I was struggling a lot with living congruently and authentically because I still didn’t know who I was at my core. Do I know today? I would say, I got a good deal closer in search of it. This summer an impactful event changed my whole life, I feel like it has shaken me up so deeply that it felt like waking up from a trance. This new feeling was so overwhelming that I seriously needed a personal retreat of aloneness and little interaction with the external world because I was so confused about my confusion within. I needed a quiet space to be with myself to truly and sincerely feel myself in order to let the answers come to me.
This new awareness then again has connected me with other energies and also many thoughts and feelings about the female cycle and empowerment in a world where male energy has been dominating for too long, used to oppress women for many centuries up to this present day. From politics, the news, work life and family life. The importance of achievements and the obsession of constantly being busy and doing things, proving and competing with little time to rest, be yourself and take time for self-care and attending personal needs because it is inevitably associated with laziness and unworthiness. When in fact this is where the power of love and healing spring from. We have completely gotten out of touch with this part in us and rejected which in turn manifested itself as depression, illness and violence. They call this happening “The fallen angels”. When suddenly male and female was divided and seen as two separate identities. This is happening in men just as much as in women. This is why also men feel this deep inner void and yearning for healing a wound the don’t know they have. The wound of love and self-acceptance in a world where they are taught from a little age what it means to be a real man and to shut down their sensitive and emotional side so they do what’s expected of them and can’t show neither tears, emotions, nor vulnerability.
Female energy is healing, it awakens and brings back the truth of who we are, women and men, and the power that lies in us far away from the personalities that we were taught to represent. Without the female energy, we miss half of ourselves and the same goes for the male energy in the woman. That deep love, connection and realization to the light we are and the shadow parts that forms part of our humanness. Honoring the woman in you is honoring and healing your ancestral lines, the innocent child you were, the adolescent that had to fit in in order to survive and the young adult that was trying to compete and keep up with a fast growing world so that she would not be left behind and forgotten.
The blood for me represents the flow of life, the creation of all, the connection to mother earth and all beings that inhabit this place. It represents forgiveness and letting go of the old, letting go and, flowing with the wisdom of life to heal the past and the story we believed about ourselves, so that we have the chance to connect with a clean vision of who we are deep within and the woman we can become.
The woman in all of us reminds us to stand up for the right to be respected and the understanding that we have the choice and the power to create the life we desire despite the challenges and hardships experienced. Despite the comments and opinions a woman should fulfill and represent. Who she should be in our culture and the worth that is tied to her gender. All of this falls away when we realize that there was and still is a deep fear in oppressing and controlling women, making them think they were weak and insignificant in need of male authority when in reality once a woman finds her true powers within, she becomes unstoppable. Because women are the ambassadors of truth, justice and loving leadership.
So, in closing, next time you have the honor to get closer in contact with your divine female energy during your menstruation, please, don’t go through the day as you always do. Stop, pause and connect with yourself for a moment. There is a lot going on, believe me. A lot that wants to be seen by your human self.
Remember, you are energy, you are powerful.
And if you are a man reading this, I appreciate your open mind and the courage to go further than the title. I value this a lot that you were open enough and listen to a different viewpoint and true desires of a woman. 😍 I wrote it just as much for men as for women because I know that men are struggling, too, to be themselves in this complicated and contradicting world.
❤️🔥
